Viewers, beware!!

I am aware that this definitely crosses the overshare line, and I apologize upfront. But only other moms can truly appreciate the beauty that was my day. No, this is not some pureed- beef baby food. Scroll down with caution. You have been warned.

Enough said.

Playing around . . .

The weather was warm today! Hooray! By way of celebration, Aiva and I went outside (and a few inside) to take some spring pictures. This is also celebrating Aiva's cute new tutu that I won in that giveaway. Like most moms of little girls, I love to dress Aiva up and snap away with my camera. Some of my favorites:

Our busy week . . .

We had a fun week. With the warm weather, Aiva and I spent as much time out of doors as possible. We went on walks to Walmart for groceries, and went to the park a couple times.


Friday night at midnight was the release of the movie Twilight. My friend Candice and I went to "chaperone" her 14-year-old little sister at a party at Blockbuster, or at least that was our cover story. The rest is a strange combination of embarassment and pride for me. We participated in lots of trivia contests and won pretty much every one. Between the three of us, we won 2 buckets of popcorn, a bunch of candy, ice cream, a Blockbuster gift card, 2 huge wall posters (which of course we gave to my friend's sister), and a t-shirt. We also participated in the look-alike contest, and did pretty well. I think I took 3rd for Rosalee, and Candice took second place for looking like Alice. I shouldn't be bragging, but people were actually getting mad at us because we knew all the answers. Like I said, a mix of pride and embarassment. At least I'm out of the closet: I am a Twilight nerd. This photo is right before I left for the party.




Saturday morning I did something drastic . . . I dyed my hair dark brown. I have had long, blond hair since my senior year of high school. That is eight years, people. I needed a change. The mirror shock has been more than I expected, since I've been thinking of doing this for many months, but I'm starting to like it. Haha! It's not this dark in person. This is a bad picture, kind of embarassing, but oh well! I really should have done my hair before taking the photo. Hehe.

And last, but not least, a cute photo of my little Aiva! She's wearing her little necklace she picked out at Walmart. :) Don't you gotta love little girls???

I WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, I need everyone's help! I entered a blog give-away and I WON!! I won a GORGEOUS tutu, curtesy of babyemblems.blogspot.com. Check out her website. She's got some way cute stuff. Below are a few examples of the tutus:

Am I a lucky girl or what??? (Okay, it's actually Aiva that's the lucky girl, since she will be wearing it.) I get to choose whatever color of tulle and ribbon that I want, and she will make it for me! So my dilemma is that I only get one, I don't know what colors I should choose and I have to get it right! So I need your opinions. Below are a few of the combos I've thought of that I like. Tell me which one you like best, or if you have a good idea of a different combo.

Light Green Tulle w/ Pink Ribbon (the bottom one in the photos)

Light Pink w/ Goldish-Yellow Ribon

Brown Tulle w/ Pink Ribbon

Light Pink Tulle w/ Black ribbon

Light Pink Tulle w/ Brown Ribbon

Light Pink Tulle w/ Cream Ribbon

Light Purple Tulle w/ Cream Ribbon

OR I also like the idea of cream tulle with a colored ribbon, but do you think that would get too dirty???

Thanks, everyone, for your help!! I appreciate it!

(Sorry also about the no spacing with this last part. I couldn't get it to do it. Does anyone else have this problem?)

Finally, some pictures

After months of depressing posts, I'm finally going to post some pictures!!! Because this cute little girl is what keeps me going when the times are tough!

Is this first one not the cutest ever???

This is Aiva at my sweet mom's wedding yesterday!

After eight long years being single, she finally tied

the knot to Koji Sato! I'll show pics of

that event when I have them. Congrats mom

and Koji! We love you both!

I LOVE these cute, girlie hats!

Unfortunately, I don't own this hat. This is at

The Quilted Bear. Don't ya gotta love

that store?

Aiva showing off her pretty necklace!

She is saying "cheese!"

Scam alert!!!

I just got finished dealing with an internet scam that I wanted to let people know about, so naive people like me don't get taken! I made a deal with Mike when I had my miscarriage that if I had my miscarriage naturally at home and saved the $500 for a D & C that I could buy a Nikon D40 DSLR that I have been despirately wanting for like a year. I looked all over online and found a killer steal on soniccameras.com. I bought it, and settled in to wait the 8 - 10 days for delivery. Then I got an email asking me to call Sonic to verify my order over the phone. I did, and they tried to sell me a bunch of other stuff to go with my camera. I kept telling them no, and then the guys said quickly, "It'll be there in 4 - 6 weeks" and hung up on me. I was like, what?! and was getting suspicious, so I called back (which takes several tries to get through) and I asked to have my order cancelled. The guy said, "Okay, it's cancelled" and hung up on me again. So I called back again and asked that I be emailed a confirmation that it had been cancelled. They said, "Okay" and hung up on me again. By this time I'm getting mad and nervous. I called again and asked the person, "when can I expect to receive the email confirming my cancellation?" The guy said, "Let me transfer you" and put me on hold, which by this time I'd figured out meant that no one was EVER going to pick up. So I called my credit union and had my cards cancelled. Then I did what I should have done before I ordered the camera in the first place: I googled Sonic's name. Scam, scam, scam!!! I am sooo mad at myself! The fact is, I'm a newbie at ordering things online, and I never thought this would happen to me. Luckily, my account never got charged and they won't be able to charge it.

So, as a warning to everyone: Google before you buy, and if the price is too good to be true . . . it probably is!!!

Sad day . . .

I always thought that people who announced their pregnancies before the second trimester were taking a bit of a risk since the chance of miscarriage in the first trimester is so high. The reason I announced mine so early was because of the way that it happened. The chance was so slim for me to get pregnant in the first place, and I really, really felt in my heart that this was a baby that just really needed to get here. It was just so meant to be. But yesterday we found out that I miscarried. I was 11 weeks, and the last week, my nausea had dropped off so sharply, I just thought that this time I was really lucky because I was sick much longer last time. Then the day before yesterday the thought ran through my mind that maybe I had miscarried. I tossed the thought aside. Reminded myself that this baby was meant to come to us right now (apparantly), and that each pregnancy is different and I was far enough along that I should start feeling better anyway. I work in the radiology department at Davis Hospital and the next day at work (yesterday) I decided to have the ultrasound girls check me out, just to ease my mind. No heartbeat. I have had no symptoms other than the easing of my nausea that would indicate a miscarriage. I saw my doctor and he left the choice up to me to either wait and let the miscarriage finish out on it's own (which he said might be 2 weeks or so) or just get it over with and have a D&C. Does anyone who's been though this have an opinion either way? I'm thinking I'd like to let it just happen naturally, but I'm not certain that I want to go through waiting and grieving for that long. This has been a lot harder than I ever expected a miscarriage to be. Opinions please?

I've learned at least two things: I won't post a pregnancy again until I'm past the first trimester, because this is just plain humiliating to have to "announce" a miscarriage. And I won't complain so much about feeling nauseous next time. It's a sign that everything is going the way it should.